God I'm one of them?

U know when you and your friend go out shopping or go for a coffee/drink and u see a guy walk past and your mate goes "OMG! My ex is over there, he's such a dick!" Am I one of those dicks! Have I just broke up with someone for no genuine reason what so ever.

They say you appreciate your single life so much more when your in a relationship, but when your single, you think, well I'm not any happier then when I was with them. Guess that's just guilt? Am I right?

Anyway I'll get over it. Suppose I'm being self-centred, I've not even thought how he might be feeling. Then again he could be thinking "Thank fuck that ended"... oh come on who we kidding... of course he ain't thinking that?

Started back at the gym... quitting the cigs... starting a new fresh...

Maybe that month on holiday from my singlehood has done me some good!

Lady Gaga is my life!!!!!!!!

Simple!

A blog from the bog

Not much to say... or you wanna know...

SOME PEOPLE!

I'm sooooooooo annoyed at some people in this world!

Some heartless, selfish people!

How can people treat others so badly when there are so many other bad things going on!

I wouldn't say I'm a perfect person... but never would I treat a person like shit when sometimes... sometimes they might need them most!

And how can some people feel so hard done by when others brush themselves down, wake up each day... can get on with things!

Some fucking people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you, but I love me more

“I’m looking for someone special”, “I’m fed up of being messed around”, “Why are there no good men out there”. Sound familiar? Of course it does. That’s you! Gloomy, miserable you! You complain like you’re the only person who has been hurt before, and everyone else has had it easy. Well let me hit you with some knowledge. Your not! Everyone has felt that way at some point or another. We’ve all said those exact words, or something similar, which includes connotations of hurt or regret! But what I wonder is who here can raise there hand, stand up and say, “I made out I was looking for someone special, when really I would have made do with anyone who made me feel special”, “God I messed him around a bit”, and “Why can’t I be bothered settling for someone when there are generally nice men out there”. You wanna know why? Because we have all at some point or another been selfish and shallow when it comes to a relationship.

I can honestly say, I have been selfish and shallow, for the simple fact, right now, I love guys, but I love me more. Am I having fun being single, of course. Do I want to be single, not necessarily? Contracting a bit perhaps? No! If someone came along, that “special person” we talk about so much, sure I would jump at the chance, otherwise anything other then that guy, why settle for your Average Joe, why settle for anything less.

So am I just sitting around waiting for Mr Right to knock on my door? Am I balls! Something long term can wait; something spontaneous is what I’m after at the present.

But what if I break a few hearts on the way? So fucking what! We all get our hearts broken at some point or another. The feeling that nothing is worth living for anymore, that everything is no longer as bright and colourful as it once was… blah blah blah! It’s about getting over it. Moving on!

And lets face it… if your not planning on breaking a few hearts from now… you most likely already have.

Sure there are a lot of dickheads out there who will make you feel like shit, but remember to someone else your most likely that dickhead who makes them feel like shit…

Job trial tomorrow!!!!!!

Heres the thing...

I have a job trial tomorrow in a salon called Urban Hair in Standish... I got told its a good salon... and they want a good hard working trainee... so they put my name forward!

I'm nervous... but excited at the same time... I really want a job in a salon... so fingers crossed its what I'm looking for... and I'm what they are looking for!

I keep thinking to much into it... I'm already planning on quitting next hehe... which I depending on the hours/shifts I'll be doing might not actually happen.

Anyway wish me luck... I don't know what I'll be expected to do... shampoo... blow-dry... or maybe just make cups of tea...

I'll try impressing them with my head massages... These hands of mine can work wonders... so hopefully I'll get a job out of it!

Eep....... so nervous hehe

x

The Heaton Clan!

I was talking with a friend the other day about our families. In recent years I have heard nothing but bad comments from people about their parents, sibilings, aunties, grandparents, like its a episode of Maury! And it has made me realise something. I love my family! And you know what I actually feel quite smug about it. Sure they piss me off sometimes, but then again most people piss me off half the time lol, but nevertheless I feel completely honoured to have the family I do.

My Mum- Can make a mountain out of a mole hill if I'm perfectly honest, but without being sexiest, thats most likely because she is a woman. However, she always has good intensions and other peoples needs before her own. I tell her everything about my life... even the stuff she doesn't want t hear... which I find amusing, as she gets all embarassed! Good times!

My Sister- I appreciate her more when she is away from home... because it means I look forward to seeing her when she returns. Shes the girl that knows everything about everything about me! She's the one who when your going round to a guys house to "hang-out", tells the parents "Mark's just gone from to Laura's or Becky's or Ryan's house". Great girl!

My Dad- Now as a few of my readers will know... I never got on with my Dad, and tbh I don't really want to focus on the past. What I like is the now. I like how accepting his is. How nothing I do seems to surprise him anymore. He's the guy I ask for a sneeky cig off because apparently "I've quit". And the guy that if I'm ever is serious trouble, he'll deal with it calmly and able to sort it out for you.

And most importantly... we all know how to drink like a fish!!!!!!!!