Monday, 27 July 2009

I'm such a dick!

I really am! Thats what peoples first impressions of me must be! Now I'm going to sound very sorry for myself in this blog post but fuck it... better out then in!

I make out I'm this amazing, care free guy... when really I'm the exact opposite. I do care what people thing... I'm not that amazing! What do you see when you first see me? To most people... a puff, a queen! When you wanna know something... despite what you might think... I'm not! Sure it might be obvious I'm queer... when you talk to me... I don't make it obvious. I have a personality don't I! My life isn't revolved around handbags and Vogue Magazine!

I'm fed up of being spoke to like shit! Sure I'm proud of the fact I'm quite blunt with people... but never would I talk to someone like shit... just for the sake of it... so don't talk to me like that!

First impressions of me... what our they? Most likely negative! Right? How can you keep telling yourself your a great person when so many people put you down. You can't? And evenutally you start to live up to reality. Your not the person you'd like to be.

I hate hating myself! So I put all those emotions in a tiny box in the back of my mind... but sooner or later that tiny box can't fit all the feelings you've kept lock inside. So they come spilling out! And your left to clean the mess up.

I'm such a dick!
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2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Mark, don't start believing such ridiculous things. You're lovely. You're sweet and you're funny, whilst still being able to be honest with people and I like spending time with you. So stop being so daft. Anybody who makes you feel like you described in that blog post is really not worth listening to, as well as the fact that they're wrong. So don't dwell on whatever they said to you, ok?

Much love, Cath xxx

28 July 2009 at 18:19
Vicky1410 said...

I love you, you're fantastic x

29 July 2009 at 14:44

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