I love you, but I love me more

“I’m looking for someone special”, “I’m fed up of being messed around”, “Why are there no good men out there”. Sound familiar? Of course it does. That’s you! Gloomy, miserable you! You complain like you’re the only person who has been hurt before, and everyone else has had it easy. Well let me hit you with some knowledge. Your not! Everyone has felt that way at some point or another. We’ve all said those exact words, or something similar, which includes connotations of hurt or regret! But what I wonder is who here can raise there hand, stand up and say, “I made out I was looking for someone special, when really I would have made do with anyone who made me feel special”, “God I messed him around a bit”, and “Why can’t I be bothered settling for someone when there are generally nice men out there”. You wanna know why? Because we have all at some point or another been selfish and shallow when it comes to a relationship.

I can honestly say, I have been selfish and shallow, for the simple fact, right now, I love guys, but I love me more. Am I having fun being single, of course. Do I want to be single, not necessarily? Contracting a bit perhaps? No! If someone came along, that “special person” we talk about so much, sure I would jump at the chance, otherwise anything other then that guy, why settle for your Average Joe, why settle for anything less.

So am I just sitting around waiting for Mr Right to knock on my door? Am I balls! Something long term can wait; something spontaneous is what I’m after at the present.

But what if I break a few hearts on the way? So fucking what! We all get our hearts broken at some point or another. The feeling that nothing is worth living for anymore, that everything is no longer as bright and colourful as it once was… blah blah blah! It’s about getting over it. Moving on!

And lets face it… if your not planning on breaking a few hearts from now… you most likely already have.

Sure there are a lot of dickheads out there who will make you feel like shit, but remember to someone else your most likely that dickhead who makes them feel like shit…